lydiascreams | Entries tagged with banshee experience

[Friends]
[Lydia doesn't look too happy, but it's hard to tell what, exactly, is off about her. She's definitely concerned and overall, there's something heavier about her posture, her expression.

She's sitting by her desk and beside her communicator is, a pile of the books given to her for Christmas about the supernatural and about banshees. She's been studying.]

I know a lot of people have been feeling off since we got back from the port. I was in the infirmary myself for over a day. But there's something else going on. Something about the Barge is different, I don't know what, exactly. But I can feel it.

It's not death, but almost like a shadow. We all need to be careful. [She knows not everyone she considers her friend knows she's a banshee. But she cares about them so she wants to warn them. She's just not ready to announce it to the entire barge and cause panic.]

[Andrew]
[That's not the only thing worrying her, however. She has her warden item, her key, in her hand and is looking down at it when she starts the video to her inmate.]

Hey. I think we need to talk.

[Spam - Kira]
[She has heard about Kira being awake again after her time at the infirmary. She hasn't been over there to see her yet, though. And she hasn't really talked to her since the day she learned about Jackson.

And she knows it's about time for her to apologize. Or-- at least make things clearer. So she makes her way over to Kira's room and knocks on her door, hoping she's actually there so they can get this over with.]

[Allison]
[She feels silly, leaving her a message like this. But she used to write her texts before coming here, before Allison's arrival. Of things she needed to talk to her best friend about. And she has been talking to her in her room, but right now she feels like she can't leave because she has research to do. To stop someone else from getting hurt. So this will have to do.]

I need you to wake up. If something bad's about to happen, [And it is.] I need to know for sure you're okay.

[Jean]
[She's been meaning to do this since he arrived, but there's been so much going on, she never actually followed through with it. But now that she's talking to him again, she figures he's waited long enough.]

Hey Jean, can I ask you something?

[The Banquet Hall - Open Spam]

[She finds herself on the floor, but not of her cabin anymore, the baseball bat she was holding falling to her side. Before she can even look around to try and make sense of where she is, it all hits her hard. The voices are loud. Too loud. She lifts her hands to cover her ears and closes her eyes, taking deep breaths as she tries to focus, on drowning them out.

It's worse than it was at Oak Creek, it's almost as bad as it was when she first got to the Barge. It probably is just as bad, but being around Arthas has helped her control it more. She just needs to focus.

But it's too much to hold in, she knows that before she can focus, she needs to scream.

All the scream does is help drown out the noise, allowing you to hear what you really need to. I can help you focus your hearing.

She hates Peter, she'll always hate Peter, but for all he's done, she knows he's also incredibly knowledgeable. And she knows he was right. Because when she first got to the Barge, it wasn't until she screamed that she managed to focus again.

So with her eyes still closed, she takes a deep breath, and screams.]

[Video - Friends]
[The scream works and it helps her calm down enough. But it's not until she manages to make her way out of the Banquet Hall, that she reaches for the communicator.

Thanks to the Admiral's warning, she managed to get the suit Babs made her on, and Stiles had time to hand her his baseball bat. Which she's now holding.]

Where's everyone?

[ooc: Lydia can also be found at the Mezzanine, Library or The Master's Terrace for the next few days.]

[Open Spam]

[Lydia doesn't look too well these days. Her face is paler than usual her eyes wide as she looks around the Barge. She's headed for the deck, or the enclosure if it's not taken. And with her, she had her tiny papillon, Prada, and Scott's alaskan malamute puppy, Fluffbutt (but Lydia is only calling him Fluffy and pretending it's a Harry Potter reference).

She hasn't slept this bad since-- since she got to the Barge and Stiles started spending the night. It seems like these days, it doesn't matter if he's there with her or not. The nightmares are still happening. No matter how much she tries to tire herself out, or tries to stay awake, every night, a new horrifying, realistic, dream takes over. Even if she just nods off for a second. And she can't shake herself out of it.]

[Video -- Wardens]
[Lydia looks a little more tired than usual. Not even her makeup is able to really cover up the dark circles under her eyes. But she's still doing her best to look put together. Her hair is in a half updo and she's wearing a white and pink flower print dress.

If anyone asks, she will blame Bucky's training for her exhaustion. But it has very little to do with it.]

I don't know how many of you heard about the new inmate, Jerry Dandrige. He barely arrived and he has already spent a week in Zero. He has hurt a few people and I'm afraid he will do it again.

Those of you with more experience here, what do you suggest we do about it?

[Video -- Andrew]
[She does make a bigger effort to smile when she contacts Andrew, though.]

I've had some ideas about how to help you with the Anchor thing.

( [Spam -- Stiles] )

( [Spam -- Bucky] )

[Open Spam - Art Room]
[Since the breach, Lydia has been alternating between staying in the infirmary with Allison until her best friend kicks her out, and vanishing from sight completely. Whenever she's not with Allison, she feels like she need to do two things: let all of her emotions out as much as possible -- which she does alone in her room where hopefully no one can hear her -- so she can be in control of them when she's around the others. And trying to somehow tap into her powers. Get a better control over them.

Nothing has helped her since she arrived at the barge and she's obviously still as much a failure at this as she was the first time she's lost Allison. And the memories of her mirror self are fading more and more each day and she knows she needs to use what she does remember of her control as much as possible while she can still remember.

So she's been in the art room as often as she can, without anyone there. She has her iPod with her because she knows sounds are one of the main triggers for the warnings. So she's been closing her eyes and letting her hand wander over the drawing board.

Not much has come to her. Mostly drawings of past deaths. Symbols of those deaths. A sword, a silver arrow, a hand with werewolf claws. Jennifer's symbol. Of course, the Nemeton.

She knows this is progress. But she knows it isn't good enough. It's not going to be good enough until she can save someone. Until she can so something more than cry over their bodies.

Today is no different. She's just settled down on the stool in front of the blank drawing board and with a deep breath, closed her eyes and let her hand take control.]

[A few days after the breach]

( [Private Video - Needy] )

( [Private Video - Andrew] )

( [Tether Spam - Stiles] )

[Private Video - Pack & Friends of the Pack]
[She can't find them. Any of them. The sounds are getting louder, the whispers, the screams, the voices. They are talking to her. Someone is going to die and she doesn't even know where they are.

That's not all. The music is pulling her down, further down the stairs and everything she's feeling is getting stronger. She's felt this before. That day when the Nogitsune trapped her in Oak Creek with him, kept her there as it taunted her about Stiles dying and she felt it. She knew he was weaker, she knew he was still in danger. But most of all, she knew someone else was going to die, too. She knew the Nogitsune hadn't known this, but Lydia knew Allison was in danger all along. And she was trapped, hands tied even though she was trying to save her best friend.

Lydia is feeling something very similar now. Stiles is in danger, a lot of danger, but so is Allison. And there's that familiar chill and familiar dread that comes with every thought about her best friend.

It's disorienting, terrifying, and Lydia just wants to get away from it, get to them.

She stumbles her way through the stairs and reaches for her communicator. She can't find them, and she can't make the same mistake again.

Her hair was neatly pulled up into a bun when she left her cabin but now, there are loose strands all over her face, her eyes are wide and she looks as terrified as she feels.]

Something is happening. Stiles and Allison. Something is happening to them.

[Open Spam (for voices in her head and/or rescuers)]
[Finally, she makes her way out on a floor. She has no idea where she is, but there's a roller coaster. And music. It's loud. Very loud. But as the cars pull to a stop in front of her, Lydia doesn't think twice before getting into one of them. Maybe it will take her there, to one of them.

And it does. Lydia sees their faces as they as the car gains speed and throws her all over the hallway, she's not even trying to hold on, she's just trying to see them.]

You thought it was over? I'm still here, Lydia. I'll always be here.

[It's the Nogitsune, he's the one taunting her and she shakes her head.]

You're not real. None of this is real. They're okay. They have to be okay.

And I'm sad to the core. When you give, I want more. I wanna be adored.

( Red String Of Fate: A Stydia Soundtrack )

(OOC: Banshee scream below! It takes place on the Deck. Feel free to have your characters react to hearing it and let me know if you have any questions.)

[Action Spam -- Open]

[Lydia has been working on this little by little every day since she got to the Barge. She's been hearing all of the deaths and taking notes on her phone of names, murderer and murdered as a way to keep track of who could hurt them as well as how they chose to hurt them. Some of them showed up several times and she knows she needs to warn Stiles and Scott of those, at least.

She knows she's reaching breaking point. After each flashback, it becomes harder to hold back the scream. And that's why she chooses to go up on the Deck today. Because she figures at least she will be the furthest away from the rooms if she can't hold back anymore.

Except she doesn't expect the deck to hit her as hard as it does.

Once she gets there, she feels like she's being slammed with memories. There are so many of them all over the place, she feels like her head is going to explode. There's someone being strangled. Skeletal animals torn someone else apart. Another man's soul is splintered apart. A boy about her age has his throat slit open by a girl. One dies after a fight with the same man who strangled the first and the man whose soul got splintered kills another with a back stab.

It's too much, she can barely make sense of it all. Her hands are covering her ears and it's loud. So loud.

Before she can help it, Lydia screams. It's a loud, agonizing scream that makes her entire body shake and it feels like it's going on forever. She's never screamed for so long before, with the pain of so many.

Once it's over, her knees give under her and she kneels on the floor, hands trembling as she rubs them over her face, trying to catch her breath.]

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( [Stiles & Scott] )

( [Wynter] )