Lydia Martin screams (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
lydiascreams) wrote2014-09-02 12:59 am
lydiascreams) wrote2014-09-02 12:59 am
Entry tags:
- !game:tlv,
- andrew-thinks he's not cool,
- banshee experience,
- banshee-all i have are voices in my head,
- banshee-not much of a banshee,
- jerry-does plenty of sucking,
- scream lydia scream,
- stiles stilinski,
- stiles-of anchors and feels,
- stiles-you're the one,
- the red string of fate,
- warden: saving the bad guys
[012. Haunting me, taking its sweet time.]
[Video -- Wardens]
[Lydia looks a little more tired than usual. Not even her makeup is able to really cover up the dark circles under her eyes. But she's still doing her best to look put together. Her hair is in a half updo and she's wearing a white and pink flower print dress.
If anyone asks, she will blame Bucky's training for her exhaustion. But it has very little to do with it.]
I don't know how many of you heard about the new inmate, Jerry Dandrige. He barely arrived and he has already spent a week in Zero. He has hurt a few people and I'm afraid he will do it again.
Those of you with more experience here, what do you suggest we do about it?
[Video -- Andrew]
[She does make a bigger effort to smile when she contacts Andrew, though.]
I've had some ideas about how to help you with the Anchor thing.
[Spam -- Stiles]
[She knows it has to be all in her head. Between her inability to sleep in the past few days, constantly seeing him out in the halls every time she turns to go somewhere. Every time she closes her eyes. She's done enough research to know it's some kind of PTSD. And she also knows that the fact that he is dead has to be throwing off her banshee senses.
But it's getting hard even for Lydia Martin to remain logical. It's only been a couple of days since it started getting really bad, but she hasn't been able to clear her mind enough to stop it. And tonight is no different.
No, if anything, tonight is even worse. She's in her cabin and she keeps feeling like he's going to just show up in there. In bed, next to her. Telling her he can't give her answers yet. Much like Peter had done. Because she's having a hard time separating the two. And she can't help but wonder what kind of power Jerry will find he has over her when he does have the confirmation she's indeed a banshee.
Trying to tell herself she's being ridiculous isn't helping. Lydia rubs her hands over her face but when she glances over, all she can do is focus on the light coming from the hallway from underneath her door. And every time someone walks past her cabin, she tenses. She doesn't even know if there really are people out there or not. She doesn't know if the shadows are all in her head. But she does feel like she's losing it yet again.
She can't just lay there anymore. She glances over at the clock and it's almost one. She has to be up in 3 hours for training and she's determined not to embarrass herself in front of Bucky or anyone else anymore, so she knows she needs to get some rest.
And she knows there's only one place where she might actually get it.
Her body is sore as she pushes herself off the bed, pausing only for a second to grab her robe and wrap it around herself. She will come back to change in the morning.
Lydia does hesitate before pulling the door open and when she does, she takes a deep breath. Then rolls her eyes at herself and steps outside. She doesn't see him at first, but eventually, just as she's about to leave the 5th floor, she glances down the hall and she swears he's there. And then, at least three more times before she reaches the door of 712. And by the time she does, she's already looking around herself, eyes wide, just waiting. Expecting him to show up and grab her. Expecting claws to dig at her side and teeth at hew neck.
She knocks quickly, standing very close to the door as she glances over one shoulder, then the other. And hopes Stiles will hurry up.]
[Spam -- Bucky]
[Lydia is angry. She's angry about a lot. About what Jerry has been doing to her. If it's really him, if it's something in her head, she doesn't know. She's angry at Allison for wanting to protect her instead of protecting herself. She's angry at the other wardens for jumping to the conclusion that killing is the only solution. And she's angry at herself for not being able to control any of these situations.
So this morning, when she shows up to training, she's completely different. She's not complaining. She's quieter than usual. And she's focuses. Very focused on everything Bucky is telling them. Even if she barely wants to look at him right now. She knows that at the very least, learning what he is teaching will give her more control. Will help her be able to help herself instead of relying on Allison or someone from the pack to save her life every time.
After training is over, she doesn't leave. She heads to one of the stations to go back to training. She knows inmates can't come in here unless they are let in, so at least she knows she's safer here than in the rest of the barge.]
[Lydia looks a little more tired than usual. Not even her makeup is able to really cover up the dark circles under her eyes. But she's still doing her best to look put together. Her hair is in a half updo and she's wearing a white and pink flower print dress.
If anyone asks, she will blame Bucky's training for her exhaustion. But it has very little to do with it.]
I don't know how many of you heard about the new inmate, Jerry Dandrige. He barely arrived and he has already spent a week in Zero. He has hurt a few people and I'm afraid he will do it again.
Those of you with more experience here, what do you suggest we do about it?
[Video -- Andrew]
[She does make a bigger effort to smile when she contacts Andrew, though.]
I've had some ideas about how to help you with the Anchor thing.
[Spam -- Stiles]
[She knows it has to be all in her head. Between her inability to sleep in the past few days, constantly seeing him out in the halls every time she turns to go somewhere. Every time she closes her eyes. She's done enough research to know it's some kind of PTSD. And she also knows that the fact that he is dead has to be throwing off her banshee senses.
But it's getting hard even for Lydia Martin to remain logical. It's only been a couple of days since it started getting really bad, but she hasn't been able to clear her mind enough to stop it. And tonight is no different.
No, if anything, tonight is even worse. She's in her cabin and she keeps feeling like he's going to just show up in there. In bed, next to her. Telling her he can't give her answers yet. Much like Peter had done. Because she's having a hard time separating the two. And she can't help but wonder what kind of power Jerry will find he has over her when he does have the confirmation she's indeed a banshee.
Trying to tell herself she's being ridiculous isn't helping. Lydia rubs her hands over her face but when she glances over, all she can do is focus on the light coming from the hallway from underneath her door. And every time someone walks past her cabin, she tenses. She doesn't even know if there really are people out there or not. She doesn't know if the shadows are all in her head. But she does feel like she's losing it yet again.
She can't just lay there anymore. She glances over at the clock and it's almost one. She has to be up in 3 hours for training and she's determined not to embarrass herself in front of Bucky or anyone else anymore, so she knows she needs to get some rest.
And she knows there's only one place where she might actually get it.
Her body is sore as she pushes herself off the bed, pausing only for a second to grab her robe and wrap it around herself. She will come back to change in the morning.
Lydia does hesitate before pulling the door open and when she does, she takes a deep breath. Then rolls her eyes at herself and steps outside. She doesn't see him at first, but eventually, just as she's about to leave the 5th floor, she glances down the hall and she swears he's there. And then, at least three more times before she reaches the door of 712. And by the time she does, she's already looking around herself, eyes wide, just waiting. Expecting him to show up and grab her. Expecting claws to dig at her side and teeth at hew neck.
She knocks quickly, standing very close to the door as she glances over one shoulder, then the other. And hopes Stiles will hurry up.]
[Spam -- Bucky]
[Lydia is angry. She's angry about a lot. About what Jerry has been doing to her. If it's really him, if it's something in her head, she doesn't know. She's angry at Allison for wanting to protect her instead of protecting herself. She's angry at the other wardens for jumping to the conclusion that killing is the only solution. And she's angry at herself for not being able to control any of these situations.
So this morning, when she shows up to training, she's completely different. She's not complaining. She's quieter than usual. And she's focuses. Very focused on everything Bucky is telling them. Even if she barely wants to look at him right now. She knows that at the very least, learning what he is teaching will give her more control. Will help her be able to help herself instead of relying on Allison or someone from the pack to save her life every time.
After training is over, she doesn't leave. She heads to one of the stations to go back to training. She knows inmates can't come in here unless they are let in, so at least she knows she's safer here than in the rest of the barge.]
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[ sigh! ]
But you're right. There has to be a way to reason with him. If he's- hungry, that's not something that can just be shut off. If that's what it's about, then maybe- [ donations? really? is that what she's going to say? ] Somebody has to tell him that the only way he's going to get what he needs is if he stops hurting people on the ship. And then we need to find a way to make good on that.
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[She considers Gwen's words for a second and nods.]
It's a good idea. But it depends on what kind of predator he is. I don't know if he's like a shark that won't attack as long as he's not hungry and doesn't smell blood. But it's a place to start. [And considering her immunity, she'd volunteer.]
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So for now, we-
[ her lips purse together and her cheeks puff a bit, total thinky face ]
We- try and figure out how to protect people from being attacked?
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[Sigh. Saving bad guys is really complex.]
I'm currently looking into a couple of possible solutions dealing with technology to calm him down or some kind of mind reading/control that could help us not need to cause physical harm, but I can't tell if it will work or not just yet. Or even if mind controlling him really is any better than hurting him physically. [It's not if her experience is anything to go by.]
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Like a- vampire shock collar?
[ wow she can't believe she just asked that question ]
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Exactly like that.
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Are there people that can do that here?
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[Lydia pauses and squints.]
You're not very used to this kind of thing back home, are you?
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Science. You mean it actually makes sense from a scientific perspective?
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Which you would think would make it easier to handle, but it still isn't. We just know how it's even possible, and who's responsible.
-- Not that it's all bad, but. Three out of four instances have been -bad, yeah.
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It sounds like it'd be easier figuring that out than the supernatural, though.
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Mostly because most people don't want to give up that power once they get it.
It's probably the same story with this new Inmate.
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I doubt in his case it's a mutation but if you think of a way to contain him based on the experience you have from your world, let me know.
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Thanks, Gwen.