[033. Keep giving me hope for a better day.]

[lydiascreams]

[Video - Pack + Friends*]
(ooc: *if you could see Stiles' previous filter, you can see this, + Lydia's friends.)

[Lydia is definitely looking a lot better than she was before the port. There's a massive pile of shopping bags on her bed that she still needs to put away, but she has Prada sitting on her lap, looking very pleased with himself.]

For those of you who were worried, we're back! We managed to come back on our own just fine and we just got here a couple of hours ago.

If anyone -- Scott -- is looking for Stiles, he went to his cabin.

And Allison? [She grins brightly and shows her this picture on her phone.]

Come see me!



[Video - Anyone she offended with her previous post + Arthas]
[After greeting everyone and taking some time to unpack, she finally sits down on her chair and sends the message she's been dreading. But she knows she has to do it.]

Before the port, I did some things I'm not proud of. I wasn't in the best frame of mind and I think this is a big reason why the Admiral took away my inmate to begin with.

This break from the Barge has given me time to think and hopefully find a better way of dealing with things here, of being a better warden. If anyone would like to ask me questions about anything, or wants to clear things up with me, I'm available.

I won't try to justify the things I did before, but I want to apologize to anyone who might have been hurt or offended by my actions.

Comments

[ Private ]

[lydiascreams]

Maybe it's better to let them get it off their chest. [Instead of resorting to violence to work through their feelings.]

Are you sure? [Because yeah, you hesitated there, Letty. And then you had to reaffirm your statement. Not a good sign.]

[ Private ]

[leavetreadmarks]

Sure, as long as you don't forget where you stand and start listening to them. You fucked up, you admitted it, you apologized for it, you're gonna do better in the future.

Everyone move on.

[She doesn't think this is likely, of course, that everyone can or will just move on; Lydia will have to put her money where her mouth is, so to speak. But Letty's willing to give her the chance and also support her having it at all.

At the question, she hesitates again, wrinkles her nose.]

It's weird. And stupid.

[Ugh. The only thing that makes her say anything is she's sure Lydia will hear about it at some point - there's not so much to do on the Barge quite as cheap and effortless as talking, after all - and she'd rather it were from her.]

I got my dumb ass killed in Paris. Roderick did it, no there was no reason, yes I'm fine, yes his warden dealt with it, everything's cool.

[ Private ]

[lydiascreams]

Thanks, Letty. [She smiles a little because that's pretty much her mindset. Well, mostly. She wants to listen to them, but not let it affect her. Just take whatever constructive feedback might be available and consider it in the future.

Her eyes narrow a little at the hesitation, and then she gasps quietly. But it's obvious she doesn't wanna talk about it. So Lydia will just say this:]

I'm really glad you're okay. Death tolling isn't fun, even if it's better than the alternative.