lydiascreams | [019. Pushing on I can't escape]

[Spam - Open to people who'd come into her cabin]

[The second she steps inside her cabin, she knows something's off. Ever since the blackout, she's been staying at Stiles' or Alison's. She hasn't been back because she knows how much more dangerous Jerry can be in the dark and he has hurt enough people as is.

But she can't quite put her finger on what's happening. Not until she sees it. The words carved on the wall above her bed read Stephen, Mickey. Who's next? And while that's enough to get a rise out of her, it's the object used to make out the question mark that really makes her angry.

Allison's silver arrowhead. The one Lydia picked up from the school grounds the morning after Aiden was killed. The one her best friend made the night of her death. A token she chose to keep as a reminder why she couldn't fail again.

And to see it used in this manner. As Jerry tells her he wants to get Allison demoted, too makes her wanna scream.

Before Lydia can think this through, she gets up on her bed and reaches for the arrowhead, with every intent to pull it off the wall before anyone else can see it. She's not even rationalizing her actions and it's not until she sees the blood running down her hand and arm that she realizes she's cut herself on it.]

[Video - Open but filtered against Jerry]
[It's a couple of hours later until she makes this video and she's keeping her bandaged hand out of the camera's view.

She looks unusually angry, mostly because she feels like switching cabins feels like running, like giving up. And Lydia Martin doesn't give up. But she knows she can't mountain ash her door or sleep over in Stiles' cabin forever.]

If anyone's looking for me, I've changed cabins. I rather not publicly say where I'm staying now but if you need to know, ask and I'll tell you in private.

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[That frown stays put. But he nods.

He wants to punch this guy in the face - without provocation - more and more every day.]

We have what Jerry said - the other Jerry.

And honestly... a guard detail on him might not be a bad idea.

[It's not like he has an inmate to keep track of, these days...]

Yes, and while that helps, he didn't give us a sure way to stop him.

He needs a warden. A permanent one that can strip him of his fangs or hunger.

For now, the only solution I can think of is permanently locking him up in Zero.

No, it doesn't.

And while keeping him in Zero sure keeps him put... it doesn't really solve much in the long run. He'll just rot in there forever and as much as we might all like that, it's not why he's here. It's not why we're here.

[Even if, yeah, maybe it's the only short-term solution they have. Because they're not here to be victimized, either.]

I don't think we should wait for him to get a warden, honestly, even if yeah, that's exactly what he needs.

I know, I know it isn't. [They're there to redeem them. Even people like Jerry. To help them get a second chance. Otherwise, they might as well be like the other Barge.

But she's getting desperate.]

Do you think the Admiral will allow us to take action without his files?

I don't know. But I figure... if you don't ask for anything, how can you get it, right? And if we can't get it, we'll figure out something else.

Even if it means keeping him in Zero of keeping a guard on him until we figure that something else out. A couple of weeks in there isn't gonna kill him, even if it won't do him much good. No one's doing him any good right now, either.

I don't want him hurting more people.

You're right.

I don't want anyone else getting hurt either. He's done enough damage to Stephen. And apparently he hurt a lot of people in the other Barge while they were there.

Right now, he's too much of a danger to be helped. We need to weaken him first.

He's hurt a lot of people here, too, and it's got to stop.

I agree with you. He's not going to listen to anything as long as he doesn't think we're worth listening to.

In the meantime... if there's anything else you can think of to keep your room safer and I can help with it, you let me know. Although you might want to talk to Barbara - she's the whiz with the door locks.

Are you going to the Admiral about this?

Thank you. I will, she made Stiles a lock. But he can't come into my cabin anymore now that he doesn't have an invitation.

Yeah. I think I am. There's no reason I can't, right? And if he says no - well, maybe he won't.

Good. I'm starting to wish we could keep him off entire floors that way, but at least there are still plenty of areas he can't access without a warden. I guess that'll have to do.

Let me know either way.

At least there's that. I don't think it's right for us to be the ones locked up when he's the one who's causing the problems. But it's a temporary solution.

Absolutely.

No, you're right. It's not fair to us, and it's not fair to anyone else. But at least we know it'll work right now, until we come up with something better.

And we will come up with something better. Soon.

Thank you.

We'll have to. This can't go on longer than it has. [And hopefully the Admiral's answer to Steve will be what they're looking for.]

It shouldn't have gone on this long.

No. But at least now we're taking action.

We are. And we're going to fix this, whether it took too long or not.

Thank you, Steve. [She needed that.]

Don't mention it.

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