lydiascreams | [019. Pushing on I can't escape]

[Spam - Open to people who'd come into her cabin]

[The second she steps inside her cabin, she knows something's off. Ever since the blackout, she's been staying at Stiles' or Alison's. She hasn't been back because she knows how much more dangerous Jerry can be in the dark and he has hurt enough people as is.

But she can't quite put her finger on what's happening. Not until she sees it. The words carved on the wall above her bed read Stephen, Mickey. Who's next? And while that's enough to get a rise out of her, it's the object used to make out the question mark that really makes her angry.

Allison's silver arrowhead. The one Lydia picked up from the school grounds the morning after Aiden was killed. The one her best friend made the night of her death. A token she chose to keep as a reminder why she couldn't fail again.

And to see it used in this manner. As Jerry tells her he wants to get Allison demoted, too makes her wanna scream.

Before Lydia can think this through, she gets up on her bed and reaches for the arrowhead, with every intent to pull it off the wall before anyone else can see it. She's not even rationalizing her actions and it's not until she sees the blood running down her hand and arm that she realizes she's cut herself on it.]

[Video - Open but filtered against Jerry]
[It's a couple of hours later until she makes this video and she's keeping her bandaged hand out of the camera's view.

She looks unusually angry, mostly because she feels like switching cabins feels like running, like giving up. And Lydia Martin doesn't give up. But she knows she can't mountain ash her door or sleep over in Stiles' cabin forever.]

If anyone's looking for me, I've changed cabins. I rather not publicly say where I'm staying now but if you need to know, ask and I'll tell you in private.

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Semi-normal. I'm good. Just trying to cope with the lack of people in my life right now. No big.

Lack of people? What do you mean?

What happened?

Lost some guys along the way.

I'm really sorry, Chris.

Did they not come back?

Some of them. Some just vanished. Some are in comas.

It's a pain in the ass. The Barge feels...really quiet.

It is, quieter than usual.

But if you ever need company, Chris...

I'd appreciate it, Lyds.

Wanna meet up on the deck?

What's going on up on deck?

Absolutely nothing, aside from some company and some stars.

I'm good with that. Meet you up there.

See you there.

[Up on deck, Chris is tossing a tennis ball to himself. Up and down. up and down]

[She shows up a couple of minutes later, and maybe being up here will help her, too.]

Hey.

[Chris is sitting in a deck chair with a milkshake in hand, despite the weather being significantly cooler than usual]

Hey Lyds. How's it hanging?

[He's definitely painting an unusual picture.]

Not as well as you, seeing as you have a milkshake. [She takes the chair next to his.]

It's cold up here.

I was hungering for chocolate.

[He leans back, sipping his drink under the stars]

So what's been happening?

[She keeps her gaze up on the stars, she really should do this more often. It's calming.

And she's definitely not talking about the crazy vampire.]

Adjusting to the ship being somewhat back to normal. You?

Same. Cassel's back on his feet, so that's some good news.

Definitely good news.

Stiles, Allison, Scott and Kira are back, so, that's the good news on my part.

Yeah. I'm kind of just over everything to do with that other fucking Barge for good. I wasn't even over there and I feel wrecked.

Same here. From what I heard, it was a long month for them.

Not that here was much better.

Nah. Sometimes I love this place. And sometimes it really, really sucks to be here. Last month was one of those times.

It definitely has advantages. [Like her best friend being alive again.]

Floods and ports and breaches are not one of them.

Nope. Makes my head spin.

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