lydiascreams | [031. I can take so much. 'Til I've had enough.]

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[Lydia took a break from sitting with Stiles and Kira, watching Scott as he slowly recovers from the death toll. She took Prada for a walk, showered, then got ready to go back to Kira's. But before, she wants to throw a topic out there. It's something that has been on her mind for a while now.

And after her talk with Kira about who hurt Scott and with Steve about who hurt him, after seeing what happened to Souji. After hearing about what Arthas did, she doesn't feel like they can wait any longer.]

I know everyone is still settling back in after the port. That a lot of you are still recovering from deaths and injuries, but I want to open a subject up for discussion.

I feel like there have been a lot more deaths on the barge lately. Both from inmates and wardens. And caused by inmates and wardens. I know a while back someone brought up taking the death toll for granted, and I don't remember what led to that discussion, but I agree.

We're all taking it for granted. If we die, we think we're guaranteed to come back. What if it stops working?

But even more importantly: why are we allowing ourselves to kill each other? Why are we dealing with murder as if there were no consequences?

I understand we don't always have control over our actions, I understand floods happen and we become affected. Infected. We become other people. But they are rare occasions when we're all out of control.

There is always someone around who can see things clearly. There's always someone who can take control and stop the people who are affected from hurting each other.

My suggestion -- and I would love to hear what the Admiral has to say about this -- is for us to find a system, an emergency system, where we can cap everyone's abilities -- human or otherwise, Inmates and Wardens alike -- if they become a threat to anyone. At any given time.

And I'd like to hear opinions everyone else might have on this.

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You are one girl, be it an influential girl. My point is, trust you as I might those who will support you loudest I never will.

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It was discovered quickly, I made him go back to the Infirmary. He promised to get it handled. had I known it was a possibility, I never would have dueled with him. And, just to throw it out there, it's helped. We have found an understanding we did not have before. People may abuse death here but some good comes of it.

I died once here, as I am sure you remember.

I'm a warden. And I can make myself heard when I want to.

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[But for now, she's lost her focus completely. She didn't even know this was happening. With everything that happened with Stiles. With him almost killing himself, she'd been so focused on him, she didn't even check on the others.

And now she feels so incredibly guilty.]

I'm glad you took care of him. And that he's doing better. But you see what I meant about the death tolls?

I am not going to be convinced of this Lydia.

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I do and dont at the same time, it is like Russian roulette, Lydia. Some get to keep walking away, others are just gone and do not return.

I'm really sorry about Kara, Vergil. But-- that's the point, isn't it? I understand that in a place like this, it will happen. But why are we killing each other? Inmates or wardens, it doesn't matter. We're all here together.

[She knows it's not always like this, that they're not always so focused on being one and that there are divides between wardens and inmates, but not in this discussion. They all die the same.]

Kara's loss was simply the spark I needed to see that death here can be permanent. Even Dante, he would not just leave like that. I know Souji said he saw him, but that idiot brother of mine would not just.... Forget it. Nevermind. Be it as it may, we may be here together but there will always be a line Lydia. Its not just drawn in the sand it is a wall bricked up. You have never been an inmate, have you? Have you ever had part of you ripped out? Then to be told that you must change who you are simply to have that returned? That you are not good enough as you are? That is what we live with everyday.

Some of us are deadly even without power. Words can be just as deadly as strength, then what? Will your system rip the tongues from people or lobotomize them so they can not speak and twist their will on others?

[She doesn't feel like she's good enough as it is. And she did feel like a part of her was being ripped out of her when she felt Allison's death. But she knows he doesn't mean any of the banshee stuff. Or about the pack.]

This isn't a punishment, Vergil. It's not torture. It's meant to stop people from doing something they might regret. Stop them from hurting others. Send them into a coma if needed.

[She sighs softly, unable to really focus. Now she's worries about him and about Souji and she feels overwhelmed.]

I don't know.

[ The candle flickers at his side as Vergil says one line that has always held true to him.]

The road to hell is paved in good intentions, Lydia.

I'm aware of that.

[She shakes her head slightly, then takes a deep breath.]

I'll think of something.

Do not stress yourself over non-sense. I will speak to you later, I suppose.

[It's not nonsense to her, but there's no point in arguing now.]

See you later, Vergil.

[031. I can take so much. 'Til I've had enough.]

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